Being the consummate explorerer and all excited about this cool new adventure, I forged ahead of the teams to Earth and beamed onto the planet. It was gorgeous for about one minute. And then I was crushed to about the size of a pancake.

Thankfully, my faithful co-journeyers on our Crystal Intergalactic Mothership, Argonauts of a sort,  were onto what I was doing and had followed me and beamed me back up and reconstructed my Being.

Back to Lyra with the Confederation where we became aware of the necessity of incarnating into a dense energy body in order to conduct any work on the surface of this planet.  The Lyrans were seeking assistance with creating a 12 dimensional Lightbody that would allow the Beings in their Starsystem to live on any and all of the Stargated planets of which there were 12. Each planet being at a different vibration, their current Lightbodies and their single vibration could only spend short time periods on other planets before having to return to their home planet.

The 12 dimensional Lightbody needed to be anchored in a very dense energy body, and Earth was a prime choice for the planet to be conducting this project. Through dialogue with the Custodian Beings of Earths solar system it was revealed that if the Confederation so desired, they could participate in a unique opportunity they had been pondering for Millenia, Ascension of all life including planetary, to the next Universal Level. An evolutionary milestone as Galaxies and Universes go.

The Captain of our Ship had given me The Eye once my Being had been recombobulated. I knew this Eye meant he was going to send me to Earth to participate in the Lyrans Stargate Lightbody Project and the Ascension Process. And, he was going to come after me.

So the gig was to incarnate, forget everything about who I was, what I was there to do, and to fully embody and participate in a global simulation that was in every way totally dysfunctional for peaceful balanced living. And then, I was to awaken within this and undo all the dysfunctionality, rediscover who I really was and what I was really there to do. And then, carry out what I was actually there to do.

Like every project, working to plan is always a challenge...

outta the closet, back in the closet. this must be a writers thing... perhaps its safer to keep all these musings to myself.

but they wont let me alone. they want to be out there, and they want to be raw and kinda uncut, so here goes attempt number two.

and this is the life of a writer who is also a starseed - the journey can sometimes grab us and take us for a (helluva) ride for a while, then dump us unceremoniously on the beach to process what-the-hell-just-happened.
so, who are you, who who?

thats how my journey started, at age 40. this question would not let me be, i had to dig into it. and of course the universe initiated the whole deal by thwumping down a great whopping tree trunk in my path (the first of many).
tree-trunks-from-the-universe might be happening to a whole bunch of people right now. so this peek outta the closet might be just the right time.

so a marriage ending is a fairly hefty tree trunk. and, just so i really grocked this message from the universe, a second marriage also ended in a much more difficult way than the first.

initiations are what my guidance is telling me. the path of the ordinary initiate. ordinary, so i can tell this story in a way that most people can hear it, and, initiations are something that are a part of life lived on a planet that generates natural cycles. ever felt weird during a full moon?  all that weirdness that is felt - serves to garner your attention, to pull you out of the mundane everyday mainstream existence and provide a glimpse of the extraordinary (which might be exactly where we are all headed!).

and so my guidance prompts me: `just how have you dealt with this - what experiences have come your way, what research have you done, what awarenesses have been downloaded, what has been tempered, put thru the crucible, the cauldron, what have we just picked out of the ironsmithys furnace?`

starseed, wanderer, mission,trojan horse, et101, awaken

repeated muddying of the aquarium of consciousness

unearthing, utilizing and refining gifts of spirit

shake off some more mud

build that lightbody

do that service work

more rounds of the above until you just cant stand it anymore

rounds of overwhelm, being flattened by it, awareness of being flattened by overwhelming energies, building boundaries and repeating until strength and resilience emerge and become stable
more rounds of all of the above until you cant stand it anymore

then, inner peace comes in - and it is in-my-face!

more rounds of all of the above and extending the peacefulness further and further

letting go of the old, the service work contracts ending, each one at various different times

more rounds of the above to confuse and build discernment of where-you-are-at

slight discernment with mostly not feeling the relief

moments of relief and feeling what-might-be

more rounds of all of the above

some shadow aspects getting jumpy that no forward motion has been spotted as yet, and we are all still very very uncomfortable yet knowing uncomfortable is exactly what purportedly is needed

and then relief is spotted, entertained, enjoyed all the while continuing to look-over-the-shoulders-for (all of the above)

if this makes any sense at all, then its highly likely that you are amidst this renaissance of consciousness - kinda like da vinci and his amazing artist friends back in the 16th century swept away by incredible art, only right now its consciousness expansion (which might include creating great art!).

some call it a spiritual awakening, and yeah for those who have not had a spiritual experience it can feel as if that is the main focus.

but this consciousness expansion hits on every level, physical mental emotional and spiritual.
more on this, but now, time for coffee!
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