outta the closet, back in the closet. this must be a writers thing... perhaps its safer to keep all these musings to myself.
but they wont let me alone. they want to be out there, and they want to be raw and kinda uncut, so here goes attempt number two.
and this is the life of a writer who is also a starseed - the journey can sometimes grab us and take us for a (helluva) ride for a while, then dump us unceremoniously on the beach to process what-the-hell-just-happened.
so, who are you, who who?
thats how my journey started, at age 40. this question would not let me be, i had to dig into it. and of course the universe initiated the whole deal by thwumping down a great whopping tree trunk in my path (the first of many).
tree-trunks-from-the-universe might be happening to a whole bunch of people right now. so this peek outta the closet might be just the right time.
so a marriage ending is a fairly hefty tree trunk. and, just so i really grocked this message from the universe, a second marriage also ended in a much more difficult way than the first.
initiations are what my guidance is telling me. the path of the ordinary initiate. ordinary, so i can tell this story in a way that most people can hear it, and, initiations are something that are a part of life lived on a planet that generates natural cycles. ever felt weird during a full moon? all that weirdness that is felt - serves to garner your attention, to pull you out of the mundane everyday mainstream existence and provide a glimpse of the extraordinary (which might be exactly where we are all headed!).
and so my guidance prompts me: `just how have you dealt with this - what experiences have come your way, what research have you done, what awarenesses have been downloaded, what has been tempered, put thru the crucible, the cauldron, what have we just picked out of the ironsmithys furnace?`
starseed, wanderer, mission,trojan horse, et101, awaken
repeated muddying of the aquarium of consciousness
unearthing, utilizing and refining gifts of spirit
shake off some more mud
build that lightbody
do that service work
more rounds of the above until you just cant stand it anymore
rounds of overwhelm, being flattened by it, awareness of being flattened by overwhelming energies, building boundaries and repeating until strength and resilience emerge and become stable
more rounds of all of the above until you cant stand it anymore
then, inner peace comes in - and it is in-my-face!
more rounds of all of the above and extending the peacefulness further and further
letting go of the old, the service work contracts ending, each one at various different times
more rounds of the above to confuse and build discernment of where-you-are-at
slight discernment with mostly not feeling the relief
moments of relief and feeling what-might-be
more rounds of all of the above
some shadow aspects getting jumpy that no forward motion has been spotted as yet, and we are all still very very uncomfortable yet knowing uncomfortable is exactly what purportedly is needed
and then relief is spotted, entertained, enjoyed all the while continuing to look-over-the-shoulders-for (all of the above)
if this makes any sense at all, then its highly likely that you are amidst this renaissance of consciousness - kinda like da vinci and his amazing artist friends back in the 16th century swept away by incredible art, only right now its consciousness expansion (which might include creating great art!).
some call it a spiritual awakening, and yeah for those who have not had a spiritual experience it can feel as if that is the main focus.
but this consciousness expansion hits on every level, physical mental emotional and spiritual.
more on this, but now, time for coffee!
Och its feelinˋ quite sublime to actually be creating verbiage as a part of 'commin outta the dern closet.'
Yes, as a writer that could be considered quite naughty, the use of slang in the very first sentence of the very first post.
"What is it that I wish to write about, and why do I want to present this to the world ?"
I have a predilection for speaking to the mysteries of life that most people don't give any notice of, they don't grock these things or believe in them.
"So what, and why bother?"
There is great beauty to be had in reconnecting our 'extra' senses and learning how to communicate with nature, both on the ground of this planet, and in the other realms that surround her.
"Omg that was so serious!"
Okay it can also be a load of fun! If done in an honoring kind of way, and one interpretation of that could be when engaging in conversation with other people, honoring them where they are at by listening to really listen, and responding from that place.
This is one way to connect with the other realms, and engage in beauty, fun and amazing experiences at the same time.
"Oh so much gibberish and hooey!"
Indeed, then continue on with your day I say.
But if something has given you pause, then have a good read.
If you have by now read anything on the My Work page, you might have noticed a work-in-progress ˋRainbow Warriorˋ The Story of Damon Coombs.ˋ
This remarkable man is an energy healer, a damn good one. And, he currently is teaching people to become Whale Healers.
Yep. You read that correctly.
He was recently inspired by Scarlett, the Orca who was grieving over the loss of her new born baby, and began sending his healing energy remotely to the Orcas known as JPod.
And, they began, in amazement, communicating with him! They were overjoyed that someone was reaching out, that a human could actually connect with them and send them healing energy.
And so he is out there every day, sending healing energy to many whales now, and teaching people how to do this. And as you mightˋve guessed, I am one of them.
So sure, I have already opened up my extra senses and am taking baby steps in learning how to talk to other Beings in these realms.
But connecting to whales and other ocean denizens is a whole other thing!
When sending healing energy to the whales, we are not only giving them a helping hand, but we are opening a door to understanding how they feel. Where they hurt, why they need healing, and gaining a snippet of a few moments in the life of a whale (or dolphin or manta ray are a few others that have connected during this past month). In making this connection, if you have empathic sensing you can feel (transiently) in your body where they are in need of healing. It can be a visceral experience!
And so this seemingly crazy notion has given rise to quite the amazing experience this week. Damon felt to connect to the Maui Dolphins, a species close to extinction that lives around New Zealand.
And so a segue to me. In my little studio here in Victoria, getting ready for bed. I am 60 (omg I still feel like a teenager inside though) and so have not had monthly cycles for 10 years. But I felt one coming on... What the hell!
Upon awakening, the feeling was quite full with me. Oh you women know what I mean (sorry men). And then I got this certain feeling that happens when a Being from another realm connects with me. And somehow I knew it was a female Maui Dolphin, who was very pregnant and wishing comfort.
I could feel her burgeoning pregnancy in her belly, the stretching and fullness of all the internal bits and parts. And her longing to be on the other side of the birthing.
And so I totally obliged, spending ten to fifteen minutes sending some Reiki to comfort her, and feeling her sublime response.
Right afterwards I texted Damon, who immediately tapped in - and texted me back that he felt the female, and also felt that she was getting ready to birth.
How cool is that!
And then, getting on with my day, I dressed, chugged some tea and was out-the-door heading to my errand, when I felt that fullness in my belly suddenly release, and immediately I was filled with a totally blissful sensation. And somehow I knew that she had given birth and that it was an ecstatic experience for her!
After I picked up my wits; I was stopped on the sidewalk, people passing by not really giving me any notice (after all there are all sorts of interesting people here on the streets of downtown Victoria, we are all kinda used to just letting them be), I began walking again, feeling much lighter and totally grocking what a beautiful thing to experience. It took a few moments to remember to text Damon, and sure enough he had felt the birthing as well!
He felt she had had a baby girl, then proceeded to let me know that a baby Maui Dolphin when born is about the size of a rugby ball, and that there is an app that tracks Maui Dolphins - as they are endangered species the Conservation Authorities in New Zealand are counting them (there actually is a protected area of the New Zealand Coast where the Ocean Denizens cannot be hunted, this is where these Dolphins are living).
And so what now?
Yeah, well those darn physicists have been going on about how quantum physics and the science gleaned from all the atom smashings is telling the scientists that we are all connected to each other. That parts of atoms are connected to each other even if they are on other sides of the universe.
The spiritual sorts are also telling us that we are all one. That separateness is an illusion. As much as physicality compels us to believe that each person is a separate body, which it is, our consciousness that is sitting inside of our bodies is not separate- which is what all this connecting with spirit is about.
And so this is what I am determined to share in this blog. My experiences with spirit that compel me to believe that we really are connected to each other, and that it can be quite the hoot to open our hearts and take the time to learn how to connect with other denizens of this planet!
p.s. if you would like to experience some whale healing and meet Damon, he has two meetup groups here in Victoria called 'Healing JPod Orcas and other Whales', and 'Maui Dolphin Healing Group'
As someone who has lived through a wack of mundane and mystical experiences and as a result done some digging into identifying herself as someone from the stars who is slightly on the other side of the ET101 experience - enough to give a cosmic perspective to her writing.